The Students Gallery was always a hit-or-miss affair, with a few hints of genuine power scattered among technical exercise, shrill social commentary, and "ooh-Im-just-so-clever" picture-play. The vine on the wall that was growing plastic grapes just made Katherine remember she was skipping dinner to be here. The "True Towers" mock movie poster, collaging snapshots from the Lord of the Rings movies and footage of the September 11 massacre, made her lose her appetite. One wall consisted of a series of board games, unfolded and framed. Monopoly, Risk, Trouble, Pokamon, Chutes and Ladders... Probably, the artist hadnt put much thought or effort into them, but they spoke to Katherine. They were standing, Rumys man-fingers clasped behind her back, in front of a series of branches which had been reconstructed in a manner that resembled a large bonfire. In the center of the "fire" were tiny books: Fahrenheit 451, The Rise and Fall of the Third Reich, and others with their covers burnt off... it didnt look like a very happy work. But Rumy wasnt looking at the books. She was looking at the petrified flame... and she smiled as she sighed. Her eyes, Rikks eyes, looked as serene as a Buddhas. "Emotion recollected in tranquility," she quoted. Katherine made a noise that could have been transcribed as a question mark or three. Rumy turned to look at her. "Ive been wondering, Katherine, why so much of my manga feels... unfinished, when I look back on it weeks after its done. And I think that now I know. "I have made the mistake of writing about what Ive been going through in the present, instead of whats been well and securely in the past. You cannot truly... I think this is the word... process your feelings until they are behind you, ne?" "I think so. Jesu knows, Ive been confused enough about my relationships while they were going on. The first one... Dieu, you guys think Im manipulative... Lenny was a piece of work, all right..." "And you thought you loved him until something shocked you out of it, ne?" "Well, if you count a year or so in numb disbelief that hed abandoned me to become one of the younger, hipper deadbeat dads, then yeah, something shocked me out of it. But were talking a pretty gradual kind of shock, here." A shadow seemed to pass over Rumys eyes. The but thought was returning. "But surely you have been shocked out of love before, ne? You seem so experienced." Katherine looked at her and smirked. "Thats the most backhanded compliment Ive heard you make, Rumy, and Ive seen you try to praise Tim the Fanboys artwork. Have I been shocked out of love? I guess with Will. I was the one who lied to him, there, but he slammed his heart closed on my fingers, so violently... yeah, I got over him quick." Like that, Rumy thought loudly. Im free. Aloud, she said, "So many of my classmates were like that in lower sec... in junior high. Not in love, just in love with love." "But youve got to consider that Will only thought he was shocked out of love with me." "Eh?" Rumys voice was cracking. Im free. But... "After we broke up, he kept that door shut for as long as he could... and when it opened up, he wanted to get back together." Katherine tried to keep the bitterness out of her voice and wasnt totally successful. "And, pathetic as that looked at the time... I guess I can understand. Because I did something similar to my second boyfriend, to keep myself from getting hurt. See, maybe your classmates fooled themselves into thinking they were in love, but you can also fool yourself into thinking youre not. And even though it would be the smart thing to fall out of love with Rikk, you shouldnt be sure that you already have, just because being in his body creeps you out." "Uhhh..." Katherine threw up her hands. "Like I couldnt pick up on what we were really talking about here, Tanaka! Like I could be that clueless! I know its harder than usual to keep it all straight right now, but Im not male!--" A dart flew between them and stuck itself to a wall. Katherines head spun... and her heart sank. |